Time is up, is all over my shoulders, It's just too late and I should get this done, but I don't care even with the upcoming events left to face. I've been so numb. I pushed aside everything. I blamed somebody else, ignored the world... but still I cannot sleep, I just can't. I never admitted the fear of not being good enough, I can't control these words, never admitted that I hide my abilities. I know I'll regret this the rest of my life and I'm scared to death of getting out of my comfort zone. I don't want to move on, but I hate being stuck. Why can't I just let go.